Surprise!!

Where do I start? From the very beginning, ok... Heres the story:

Brian and I were told that we had a very slim chance if ANY to conceive naturally on our own. So we went forth with IVF and had the greatest miracle and blessing come from it. His name is Tanner. We love him dearly and couldn't feel more blessed and lucky to have him in our family and to be his parents. We had decided long ago that I would not be going back onto any birth control since the possibility of us conceiving without help was very slim. 

When I couldn't nurse any longer, I figured I would have the text book body. My cycles would start and wala.. easy enough. Well it didn't happen so smoothly. I had my first cycle in March and it was the worst ever. Awful! It lasted 14 days and I was in a lot of pain. I told myself that if that is how they were going to be from now on, I needed to do something and my only option was to start birth control. 

After April and May had gone by without a cycle or any glimpse of one, I contacted my doctor and asked him if going back onto birth control was the best thing to get things regulated. He said yes and 2 days before we headed home I started a new pack of Yaz birth control. 

Birth control had never affected me before, but I was a little off.. can you say irritable. I missed a couple of days by accident and then started back up again. I started feeling very nauseous and thought it was probably from the birth control but took it the next day anyways. I woke up the next morning and was so sick. I was shaky, pale, lightheaded, and very nauseated. I decided that was it for the birth control and when we got back to Virginia, we'd look into other options. My Mom, feeling very concerned said said to me, "maybe you should take a pregnancy test." I laughed and thought yea right, there is NO WAY I could be pregnant. We were headed home the very next day and that morning I woke up feeling nauseous yet again. Throughout the day, I began to feel much better and didn't think anything of it. 

When we got home the next day, I knew that I had one pregnancy test left so I decided to humor myself and take it. To my SHOCK and SURPRISE... It was instantly positive. I ran upstairs holding the stick and showed it to Brian. He looked at it, then looked back and me and said, "what does 2 lines mean?" PREGNANT!! 

We went to the dollar store picked up 2 more pregnancy tests and sure enough they were both positive.

I called my doctor quite frantic. See... I have been doing things that I should not have been doing if I was knew I was pregnant.. such as tanning, taking ibuprofen, mucinex and allergy medicine. I asked him if there was ANYTHING that could be giving me a false positive and he replied with "nope, not unless you tell me you haven't have sex in 3 months." So I set up an appointment for confirmation of pregnancy on Friday the 18th. I had determined from my period that I was just over 9 weeks. Dr. Shaban took a pregnancy test which was positive, and then decided to do an ultrasound and look at what we found!!

Both Brian and I were in complete and utter shock. The baby measured in at 7 weeks 2 days, making my due date January 2, 2013. We were able to listen to the heartbeat and Dr. Shaban said that everything looked great and that he would see me back in 2 weeks.

I still don't feel convinced even though I have looked at this picture over a hundred times. I am in shock. I have a baby and he's only 2 days shy of being 10 months old and Im having another baby! I have no idea what we are going to do, but what I do know is that everything happens for a reason. I also believe that if everything works out over the next 8 months, that the Lord needs this baby to be here with us. I know that this is a huge blessing and miracle. I have prayed so hard that our baby is healthy and will continue to grow and develop without any problem or delay. I have prayed that I will have the strength to do this and to be a good Mom to both babies.  I cannot believe that we are pregnant and that we did this without thinking about it, without medication and without doctors. I will not lie, I am scared, terrified actually, but I do have faith that everything will work out!