July 4th, 2012
post from family blog
(picture taken on July 4th when we announced to our friends)
I don't even know where to start. I can't begin to explain the amount of emotions that have been in our household the last couple of months.
This pregnancy came as a huge shock and quickly we realized the blessing as well. We were not trying in anyway, but I had never planned to start birth control either. We had been told by multiple doctors and our amazing fertility doctor that we would never get pregnant on our own. Our fertility doctor that did our IVF procedure with Tanner told us that IF we were to get pregnant on our own, that it would be a miracle.
I only had one cycle after the nursing stopped so before we headed home in May I called my doctor and he recommended that I start birth control for a few months to get things regulated. I started it, and while I was home I felt awful. My mom kept telling me that I needed to take a pregnancy test and I just laughed and thought she was completely crazy. I had thought for sure that it was from the birth control so I stopped taking it and still was not feeling well but being pregnant was so far from my mind.
When we got home to Virginia, I decided that I would take a pregnancy test. I was taking the test for a few reasons but mainly to rule it out. Honestly, I was not expecting anything. I took the test and within seconds it was positive. I grabbed the package and checked the back for the expiration date which was June 2012. Thinking that there might be a slight possibility of being pregnant, I ran upstairs to our bedroom and showed the test to Brian. His exact words..."Two lines... what does that mean?" I responded with "That we're pregnant!" Then I quickly explained that the test was almost expired and I needed him to go get me more tests because I wasn't sure.
Brian went to the dollar store and bought 2 more tests. I took both and both told us the same thing..
After a few minutes of complete silence, ( I believe we were both in shock) Brian suggested that we call Dr. Shaban. I called him and asked him if there was anything that could be giving me a false positive pregnancy test and that I have taken 3 and they are all positive. His non sugar coated reply was, "Not unless you tell me you haven't had sex in 3 months." We finished the conversation with an appointment to see him on Friday the 18th for confirmation of pregnancy.
The days till Friday dragged on and on. Brian and I were still a little unsure about what we'd find out but Friday came and this is what we found...
Ready or not... Baby #2 was on its way. The baby was measuring 7 weeks and 2 days, giving me a January 2nd due date.
We left the office in silence. Besides the occasional chuckle and stunned "what," not many words were spoken on the way home.
I will admit, later that evening I cried and I think the crying continued for a few days following that. All of my thoughts and emotions from my pregnancy with Tanner and then everything after he was born came flooding back and all I could think about was how on earth am I going to do this again? I couldn't help but think that Tanner was still my little baby and that they would only be 17 months apart. Thank goodness for Brian telling me over and over that everything was going to be ok, we could do this and helping me fully recognize the miracle and blessing.
The next few weeks (well 5) were pretty miserable. I was so nauseous and basically glued to the bathroom floor throwing up. It was awful. I finally gave in around week 10 and started taking medication to help with it and around week 12, I was starting to feel human again. I never experienced that with Tanner so it was all very new.
At my NT ultrasound appointment at 12 weeks, we found out two things:
#1. The baby was measuring early, giving me a December 28th due date.
#2. They are 90% sure it is a girl.
Today, I am 19 weeks. I still have 2 due dates and we are still only 90% sure it's a girl. I have an appointment on Friday to make it a solid 100%. It would have been sooner but we've been out of town so my appointments all got pushed back. I have been saying girl since 12 weeks so I will really have to change my thinking if we get a surprise boy. I am considered high risk, but so far have not had to see my high risk doctor and I am keeping my fingers crossed we can make it to the end without doing so.
Although there are times that we still sit in disbelief over our surprise, We couldn't feel more blessed or more excited for this baby to join our family.
